Kal Ho Na Ho

Refers to the title, i'm listening the song "Kal ho Na Ho " at this time , means as i found out in you tube as well "for tomorrow might never come"
this song is so sad to hear, simple word with deep meaning ,so perfectly matched with the movie, with the same title.
Every time i hear this song, it can comfort my heart and my emotion.
this song is so peaceful , feeling like when your mother hug you when you are down.

A friend, call me , and announce her happy news which i can guess just in the very moment she started to talk. She is pregnant and will prepare fir the wedding.
i feel so hipocryte for i congratulated her but my throat is strangled. And i keep my tone is flat when i said "congratulation"

I felt so worst, so stupid ...
so stupid that cannot hide jealously.
I'm sorry friend,, but you're the greatest example how this life cannot play fair to me.
Enjoy your perfect life i supposed.
as i try to enjoy mine, for tomorrow might not come for me.


XOXO