Dunno what happen to me exactly.
Clearly I need mentally caring asap.
Deep inside me, I'm wrecked, crushed.
I don't understand myself so howcome I can understand others?
I'm physically tired, for searching and gaining nothing.
I'm listening some songs now, from Ave Maria to Marcy day,
But all is inside my mind is busy by thinking
How do I get the best suicide.
What should I prepare and should I call police
Before I committed suicide so when I get hang (I decide hanging on the the door with a rope)thus when I'm finish they just come right in time to take care my dead body.
I've been thinking about this many times in a week
For long time, but till now sadly I'm still alive.
Hahahaa I'm coward , yes i'm in everything.
Ironically, my sist who always looks like cheer up, with her high confident and her social life, without thinking twice, drank pills to solve her problem with her boyfriend.
Supposed I didn't come in the right time, I lost her.
Yes, I pray, every day.
According to my religion, but it has no meaning for me.
I'm completely lost, alone and meaningless.
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