Please God , Look at me!

Hey God,

I'm sorry for being sinner,
i tried to be a good person but you know i'm not an angel.
Maybe everything i've done is not good enough yet... but you know i'm trying...

Things i dont understand,..everytime i ask and pray to You,
seemslike You're joking with my life..............
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!
I ask an apple , an apple You gave me but a worm with in.

You know i only ask simple request, but why it never happens to me?
Am i that bad in Your great eyes?
i just wanna make my parents happy and proud of me.

Things never easy for me yet you don't help!

I'M very very Sorry , that i complain about Your authority , Your greatness

i just tell You what i feel ,
That's all

XOXO

Nice Weekend

This weekend ,
we just had lunch at Dapur Alam restaurant, and talked many things. i thought we just spent not longer that one hour, as i know he's such busy man.
But we're talking cheerfully, well actually he talked more than me, and seem we discuss about my future and on and on till three hours or more.

At the time his radiant shine on me,
in odd way i adore him, his such an angel, he makes me cry, but he always be my guardian in his way , and for this i think i would do anything for him.

For this God will curse me.

XOXO
Nophe

So This Hole,Better or Worst!??

Sorry for the long absence, i've got no time , when i have i prefer to lay down on my bed. Man , i'm such a bad sleeper, after all.

Things, from my new job environment are shocking me. Well, it's been two months i've been there but the other staff/ employee they rush to get out finding new places. What the hell is going on???? Did i got the wrong places again, hopely not, but they're reaction and story really intimidated me.

I haven't finished my probition yet, and i haven't known many things either.
But their story that based on their experience quite makes me worries of my future in this place.

Lately, i feel lil bit closer to God, yes i pray a lot, coz, i really need His protection,

Doing sales and marketing (marketing not yet) is fantastic, i'd love to learn new thing specially this stuff, as i planned before. But still i make mistakes, (maybe 'coz i'm the type of person who learns from making mistake?? I guess!!

Anyway, i pray for God to make me improved day by day so i can prove to them, that Yes! I Can! So i can feel days pass me fast and i will move forward.!


XOXO
Nophe

you are my vitamin C

when i said that i would decide to move out of Bali he's sooo sad (this is really surprising me , since i told him so just because i wanna see his reaction. Seeing him speachless for a minute and his sad mimic is just shocking me, and makes me sad with him too, though i am the creator of this drama). The thing i've worried about for all this time has come true. He's come too deep and thats not rite. the worst thing is i still cannot be separated with him, i still need him like vitamin C i always consume for my body. i dont know when i will be free from his influence, maybe i'll never will. 

XOXO

Nophe

New Job

SOOOOO SORRRRY

somehow i forgot that i have responsibility to always update my blog. things are going on so fast , so confusing for me rite now. well, actually it's been a month i've been doing as a hotelier. it's not perfect hotel  but i guest it's gonna be my place to learn new things about hotel business. i'm taking it as a new leap stone, and to have a leap stone surely you can not just take a five star hotel, you'l be die anyway. 

So far so good, thanks again to Allah swt who always protect and cope me wery well. 

Oh yeaa, forget to tell, i'm accepted as sales marketing in one of 3star Hotel in Legian, however i have to learn front desk first for a month (they said) before i move to sales marketing , 

No worries , i know me, i still have to learn lot of things, such as MYOH system and product knowledge as well, i've promised to myself to learn those thing wery well (quickly , i hope) and prove to them that they did the right thing to pick me. 

My impression for the new environment for all together is..... Fair!!

i dont wanna expect much ,, coz usually high expectation give bad result. (according to personal experience).

Wish me luck everyone. 

XOXO

nophe

Lotta changes

Yes , precisely as the title , there are soooooo many things happened and changed since the last time i wrote.
OMG, i've been veeery lazy human being in associated with updating my own blog.
How come, i always have great stories of my life to tell but my mind and my body seems not hand in hand.
so, to up date things in my blog , i'll try to recollect in my mind the best i can and found the big two.
those are such as:

surely about someone's wedding event. honestly i dont really kind of this girl, but i decided to come and i totally dressed up and got make up by a homo salon for the result i loved it so much, my best appearance so far.

Alhamdulillah, thank you God, you have answered my pray, thank you for the chance and opportunity , i'm gonna work at new place for i've been employed at one property in Legian.
Pls, God help me to cope as a freshman in my new environment , help me to find my way to be accepted, and do all the task assigned to me. Amien!!!!


xoxo
Nophe

My Bad Desease!

My new babies,

candyfeetish 's collection that i've been dreaming of..........

OOOOMG.

911, Please H.E.L.P!


Am tooooooo Addicted, this is sooooo bad , i can't control my self neither my mind.


Every time i see them , i just can't resist spending money on them.


i always say to myself this is the last time, and never do it again in the near future.


But i can't help it and find myself stucked in the deep hollow of thinking....


meanwhile i'm still collecting , dreaming of .....................................





S.H.O.E.S





You know i'm fond of Diana Rikasari (Fashion blogger);s blog , personality and speacially her shoes collection.


my eyes got stucked on one of her boot, i am searching in stores, mall to find them but i can't and buying the less similar instead.





Today i stopped by in her blog as always become my rutinity and she's wearing that boots again.





Lucky me, i find the source where the boots come from , it's Candy Feetish online shop.


The more i love this boots is the price that reachable.





And Yes, i'm planning to order them. Mmuuaach!

xoxo